SOMEONE MIGHT WONDER

YOU KNOW I DONT MEAN TO OFFEND ANYONE --- BUT I HAVE HAD TO DEAL WITH SO MANY SO OFTEN --- I HAVE HEARD ALL THE OPPINIONS --- ALL THE THEORIES --- ALL THE COMPLAINTS --- ALL THE WORRIES --- I HAVE HEARD IT ALL FROM SO MANY FOR A VERY LONG TIME NOW --- I HAVE DONE ALL I COULD TO TRY AND GERT THIS CORRECT --- AND SO FAR I HAVE ACCOMPLICHED THIS --- BUT TO PLEASE EVERY ONE IS NOT WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO --- I FOLLOW INSTRUCTION FROM GOD THE CREATOR OF ALL CREATION --- I WILL NOT FOLLOW ANY MAN OR THAT OF MAN KIND --- BECAUSE THERE IS NO ONE THAT HASNT DIED OR IS GOING TO --- NO ONE HAS ANY ANWSERS TO ANY QUESTIONS THAT ARE IMPORTANT TO LIFE OR DEATH FOR THAT MATTER --- THOSE THAT DO HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY CAN ONLY GO AS FAR AS THE BOOKS THEY HAVE READ --- THEY CANT GO BEYOND THAT --- I AM NOT TRYING TO PUT ANYONE DOWN IN ANY WAY --- I AM NOT TRYING TO DISCOUNT ANYONES EFFORTS --- I KNOW HOW HARD YOU TRY --- I KNOW THE HARD WORK --- I SEE EVERYTHING YOU ALL DO AND HAVE DONE --- THIS IS EXCELLENT --- I JUST WISH THAT I WAS GIVEN AT LEAST THAT OR ANY PART FROM ANYONE EVER --- NOT SO THAT YOU THINK ANY BETTER OF ME --- BUT SO YOU CAN GAIN A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF THE THINGS YOU HAVE AND THE KNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE --- SO YOU CAN GO FUTHER THAN YOU ARE --- I NEED NOTHING FROM YOU --- YOU CAN NOT BENIFIT ME AS I AM CARRIED IN THE PALM OF GODS RIGHT HAND AND AM BELOVED BY HIM --- PUT I ALSO WORK FOR HIM --- AND YOU ARE PART OF MY JOB --- I AM ONLY ALLOWED TO KNOW ONE THING FROM GOD EVER AND THAT IS EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE --- OTHER THAN THAT HE HAS INFORMED ME --- I AM NOT ALLOWED TO KNOW A THING --- GO FIGURE --- AT THAT TIME I TRIED TO QUIT AND TOLD HIM TO SHOVE HIS JOB --- WELL THAT WAS SEVERAL YEARS AGO --=- SO WE KNOW WHERE THAT WENT --- I CAN ONLY KNOW ANY THING AT THE MOMENT I NEED TO KNOW IT --- HE TOLD ME ITS USELESS TO KNOW OTHER THAN THAT --- I THINK THATS HOW IT GOES --- NOW THE THING IS --- I DONT GET WORDS I DONT HEAR WORDS --- ITS JUST THERE IT IS AND I CAN SEE IT AND ITS GREAT BUT HOW DO YOU SAY THAT --- SO I HAVE TO MAKE IT BE WORDS SO I CAN BRING IT TO MY BRAIN AND KNOW WHAT EVER IT IS GOD IS SHOWING ME --- THEN TO TELL YOU I HAVE TO TRY TO PUT WORDS THAT YOU WILL KNOW WHAT I AM SAYING --- THE THING IS THAT WHAT I AM SHOWN I CANT FIND ANYTHING IN COMPARISION --- SO I GET AS CLOSE AS I CAN --- OR I CAN TURN IT TO KIND OF STORIES --- SO THATS IT IN A NUT SHELL --- TO ANWSER A COUPLE OF QUESTIONS --- I AM 54 YEARS OLD I HAVE BEEN THIS WAY ALL MY LIFE --- I WAS ADOPTED WHEN I WAS 24 HOURS OLD --- THIS IS KIND OF A LONG STORY SO I WILL JUST GIVE DETAILS --- I ENDED UP ONE OF THE OLDEST OF A FAMILY OF 11 PEOPLE --- I WAS RAISED MOSTLY IN UTAH AS A MORMON FORCED TO DO EVERY THING BY EVERYONE --- WE WERE POVERTY STRICKEN --- FOR THOSE WHO DONT KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS --- IT MEANS YOU HAVE NOTHING --- FINDING FOOD WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT --- SHELTER AND WARMTH FOLLOW --- BACK THEN IT WAS LEGAL TO TAKE YOUR CHILDREN OUT OF SCHOOL TO HELP SUPPORT THE FAMILY --- I WAS TAKEN OUT OF SCHOOL AT ABOUT THE FOURTH GRADE --- I WOULD HAVE LOVED AN EDUCATION BUT I NEVER GOT THAT LUXSURY --- I CAN NOT REALLY READ OR WRITE IN CURSIVE --- I DO BEST WITH CAPITOL LETTERS --- I DONT KNOW HOW PERIODS AN COMMAS WORK SO WHEN I WRITE I JUST TALK AND PUT LINES WHERE I STOP OR WHAT EVER --- SO THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I HAVE NEVER READ AN ENTIRE BOOK FRONT TO BACK --- I GAVE BIRTH TO 5 CHILDREN 3 LIVED --- I LOST MY YOUNGEST IN 1999 --- I RAISED THEM ALONE AS THIER FATHER WAS AN EXTREMELY VIOLENT MAN --- MOST OF MY GROWING UP I PICKED FRUIT ECT --- AND I HAVE ALWAYS WORKED AS LABORER IN ONE SENSE OR ANOTHER --- I CONSIDER MYSELF A CRIMINAL AS I ALWAYS SEEM TO BE DOING SOMETHING SOME ONE THINKS I SHOULDNT --- BUT I HAVE NEVER HAD FAMILY AS YOU KNOW FAMILY --- NOR HAVE I HAD THE THINGS LIKE EDUCATION HOME CAR FRIENDS --- YOUR STANDARD BACK GROUND AS YOU HAVE --- SO I DO THINGS DIFFERENT THAN MOST --- I HAVE SEEN PSYCIATRISTS ECT ALL MY LIFE AND I AM DIAGNOSED PSCSIFINIC --- I AM CONSIDERED MENTLLY DISABLED AS I CANT BE AROUND PEOPLE VERY WELL BECAUSE I HAVE A TERRIFFIC FEAR OF THEM --- I BELIEVE IT IS FROM THE THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN DONE TO ME BY EVERYONE I COME IN CLOSE CONTACT WITH --- I AM TRYING TO WORK ON THIS --- I AM TRYING TO DISCOVER IF SOME PEOPLE WONT HURT ME --- I HAVE BEEN IN PRISON EVEN THOUGH I WAS INNOCENT OF THAT CRIME --- I WAS A HOOKER BUT AT THE TIME I HAD 3 BOYS THAT HAD NO ROOF OR FOOD --- I GOT MY EDUCATION WHICH STARTED IN A CLOSET FROM GOD --- I WAS ALWAYS PUNISHED AND PART OF THE PUNISHMENT WAS BEING KEPT IN A CLOSET --- I CAN TAKE PYSICAL ABUSE THE BEST NEXT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL ABUSE --- I HAVE THE MOST DIFFICULTY WITH MENTAL ABUSE --- BECAUSE I DO HAVE MENTAL PROBLEMS M,OSTLY BECAUSE MY ABUSE STARTED AT BIRTH --- SO IN ORDER TO FUNCTION I HAVE TAUGHT MYSELF CERTAIN THINGS TO DO AND HAVE SET THEM TO RUN AUTOMATIACLY --- BUT WHEN SOMETHIONG COMES IN THATS NOT RECOGNIZIED--- IT THROWS EVERYTHING OFF AND IT TAKES AWHILE TO GET BACK --- AS I HAVE ALOT OF DIFFERENT THINGS GOING ON INSIDE --- I HAVE THE GOD STUFF I HAVE THE NUT STUFF I HAVE THE FUNCTIONING STUFF --- ANY WAY I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS TO DO JUST TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A THOUGHT --- ITS NO BIG THING IT JUST IS ALOT OF WORK TO HAVE TO BACK UP AND RESTART --- I AM NOT TRYING TO BE ANYTHING I AM ONLY TRYING TO HELP AND TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS --- I DONT CLAIM TO KNOW ANYTHING BECAUSE I GET WHAT I KNOW FROM GOD --- I AM NOT BOTHERED BY MUCH AND THERE IS NOTHING THAT IMPRESSES ME --- MUCH --- WELL ANY WAY THERE YOU HAVE IT --- I HAVE TO GO DO SOME LIFE THINGS RIGHT NOW I HOPE WHAT I HAVE PROVIDED HERE HELPS WITH SOME OF THE THINGS YOU MAY HAVE WONDERED ABOUT ME --- I FIND ITS BETTER TO LISTEN OTHER THAN TO JUST START TALKING BEFORE YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT --- ALSO TO KNOW THAT YOU DONT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT EVERYTHING --- IT WILL BE YOUR SAVING GRACE IF WE EVER GET THAT FAR --- IT IS NOT SO FAR OUT THAT THERE MAYBE ANWSERS TO THOSE QUESTIONS AND THERE COULD BE MORE TO EVERYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT YOU KNOW --- AND IT COULD BE LIFE IS SOMETHING THAT WE ARE GOING TO EXPERIENCE --- OTHER THAN THE EXISTENCE WE ARE EXPERINCING --- ITY COULD BE WE HAVE BEEN INCORRECT ABOUT EVERYTHING --- IT COULD BE THE TRUTH OF ALL IS AS CLOSE AS YOUR MONITOR OF YOUR SPACESHIP --- IT COULD BE THERE IS A REASON FOR OUR BEING HERE AND IT COULD BE IF SOMEONE HAD ALITTLE HELP --- THEY COULD EXPLAIN HOW IT ALL WORKS --- AS WELL AS LET YOU ROCKET SCIENTISTS CHECK IT OUT --- IT COULD BE THAT I IN FACT DO HAVE A GOD CHANNEL --- IT COULD BE WE WERE INTENDED TO BE HAPPY AND ENJOY ALL THAT GOD HAS DONE --- IT COULD BE THAT GOD HAD A PLAN BUT SOMEONE DIDNT KNOW HOW TO READ PLANS --- SO I WOULD STOP AND LOOK AROUND IF I DIDNT KNOW WHERE I WAS GOING OR WHERE I HAD BEEN --- BEFORE I TOOK ANOTHER STEP --- MOSTLY BECAUSE FOR ALL I KNOW I COULD BE MAKING A BIG MESS OF SOMEONES HARD WORK ---

THANKS

PIXY AND GOD THE CREATOR OFALL CREATION

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